Gay Love & Romance

Nothing lasts forever  That's what they say  I don't believe a word of it Ever since I fell in love It started when you smiled at me  My body's been over-heating  Ever since you nodded - Hey My heart has run away  On a journey to somewhere gay Nothing makes me feel  So good & real Peace in my heart  Thank you very much  I say it like it's a fact Because it is. It's in every kiss Nothing lasts forever  I don't believe that  Ever since I fell in love Nothing can pry us apart  Someone is in my heart  Ever Since I Fell In Love. -------------------- Theme Song for this Poem  Since I Fell For You - Lenny Welch Written 1945. Recorded 1963. #3 Hot 100.

.....What are you into?.... ....I like getting used.......    ..... I can take it from here......

Your body & your heart  That's all I want  Let's make a fair trade In return I offer My heart & body. And my soul To boot... jewelry & lingerie  My Manly Desire is to give you Everything you need  That's not fair. So you say Hardly a square deal Let me explain. Sweetie  I need your heart & body  Your soul is care-free  To pursue your dreams  Listen to my love songs You are my muse. I'm not your muse Now we got that straight  For you I provide  You supply the love In my heart. In my body Two items is all I want  Your body & your heart They satisfy my Manly Desire  I build a warm fire I need to give you. Everything you need.

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"Bully" (2018) on Tubi. Nothing funny about this typical American high school. The gay kid is gay-bashed. He says "the teachers can't do anything". That's not true. They choose to do nothing. Parents don't press charges. The fat kid, the goth kid, the Asian kid are also assaulted. The only groups not bullied are the black & Latino students, who eventually must help the victimized kids & restore order in the school.  The local mobsters step in. The boxing gym teaches the fat kid to fight. No police resource officer is anywhere to be seen. No student respects any authority figure.

 

Your high school bully was in love with you. Still is. "For real." He must prove his attraction & sincerity. He does. You fall in love.

Who pushes you out the door  To face the world with confidence? Who kisses you goodbye  With plans to see you again? Who is this mystery man Behind your smiling face? What is the driving force  That makes him want you more? Where is the safe place  For us to be a family? The mystical fairy land Where forever I love my man How he touches my heart  Is that what inspires me? How can a kiss give such peace? How does a whisper deliver release? Who pulls you from the edge  When you're losing your head? Who holds you tight in the storm? Each caress gives you warmth  Who says farewell in the morning  After a night of union? Can I propose another question? Who makes you fall in love?

"In the Grayscale" (2015) on Tubi. Study in the fear of intimacy or familiarity. You grow distant from your wife because you're hiding a secret. You are gay. You abandon your family to live alone.  You have an affair with another man. You grow distant again. This time there's no secret to blame it on. Everyone, including your son, finds out you kissed a man in public. A romantic kiss. Again. "I'm sorry. I need time" alone. In the end you are totally alone with yourself. Familiarity has bred self-contempt. Rated TV-MA for frequent full male nudity. Gay sex. Psychological themes.

My heart got something to say It's full of hype. Day & night I write  So much content created So much love we made it  My heart explodes with pride  It prepares me for the fall You grab my hands. I feel romance  Your kiss got my attention  My body on a wild ride You were my camera trans The center of my romance  I doubted my intentions My truthful expressions They were clear yet incoherent  Confused messages all jumbled up  Still I can't shut them up  Standing with me is my mate Under my protection & affection  We are a family of two men  One of them can't shut up  My Heart Got Something To Say.

"Dating Amber" (2020) on Tubi. The grown-ups (parents, teachers, nuns) let down the young people. Your male teacher says he knows "exactly how you feel". You try to kiss the teacher. He is shocked....... because he's pretending to be blind to what's going on in the school all around him.  For protection against out-in-the-open gay-taunting & gay-bashing at school, you (Eddie, a gay) & Amber (a lesbian) agree to fake a straight relationship until graduation. She meets a lesbian & falls in love. You join the army, hoping it will kill you.  Amber stops you at the induction center. She gives you a box of money for travel to a mythical safe space for gays. You walk away from military service. You have no one & no place to go. This movie is profoundly homophobic & realistic.

I'm All Wound Up Since you turned me on I'm discombobulated  Humming a love song Since we hooked up You made love to me It's flowing in my veins  Passion is rowing my boat Bouncing in my brain  Ricochet in my body Vocals in my throat  They sing another trope Since I found you I'm All Wound Up  Alone at home right now I can't sit still Can't forget your thrill  In the hottest heatwave  The hottest mess of my life I can't sit down  Since we hooked up I'm All Wound Up. (6/23/2024. #821. Gay Love & Romance) Theme Song for this Poem  All Shook Up - Elvis Presley

Sexy Dutch gay couple fall in love. Obstacles are overcome. When the summer ends, the romance is just beginning. ♥️ 

Me reading "Something Is Holding You Back". Filmed by my boyfriend.

Behind the scenes  Where you can't be seen Pain is like a geyser  Passion makes you stutter  Concealed in self-blame Covetous of a new flame  Secret temptation. Poor judgment But something holds you back Behind the façade That's where you sob You cry inside. Screams not dreams  Alone you hide. All mixed up Confused. Ego bruised  You want to go cruise  But something holds you back Behind a troubled man  The stage is empty  No one is an island  No matter how much they be smiling  You can hide from others But not from your lover Between the lines. You will find The one & the truth Behind a wall of promise  Your fear & doubts menace But here with me Epiphany  My calm acceptance is free  Your urge is to run away  But Something Is Holding You Back.

He pounds you. Then he leaves you....... with a sore ass! Gay music video.

I try to be humble but it's hard When my heart has a home  My bones belong to you Brighter than any star I try so hard to do the easy thing  On one hand. I don't deserve you On the other. I was born to serve you A beauty like yours is special  I'm unworthy? Yeah right !!! I'm not humble. I worked so hard In lonely deserts of sacrifice  Hardships delivered success  All of my mistakes  Every single one was destiny On the highway of broken hearts  My ship is in the harbor  I paid my dues. I sang the blues Impatiently I waited for you I tried so hard to be humble  But no. No! I'm special  Heaven sent you to me Finally 2 hearts rumble  Surely pride is a mortal sin Since you lifted me from rock-bottom I just don't feel humble.

"Take Me To The River" (2016) on Tubi. TV-MA for subject matter. Disturbing cautionary tale at the family reunion. You - a 17-year-old rebellious GAY teenager - go off to play with your 9-year-old female first cousin. She has an accident. You are accused of sexual assault.  Your life is immediately in danger. To calm the emerging lynch mob, your mom shouts, "We're family! We're family!" Instead of taking you away for safety, your parents stay 2 more nights on the farm. Suspense thriller! The viewer expects you to be murdered at any moment throughout the movie. You hide in the old barn when vehicles drive by. Alone you must confront your creepy uncle, who threatens you with a loaded pistol. Turns out, he's likely molesting his own daughter. Just as he did to your mom when they were young siblings. Finally on the drive home, you realize your parents don't love you. They don't protect you. They protect secrets.

Jonathan is 39 years old. He came out as gay at 23. He moved to NYC 20 years ago. Kudos & props. Last year I had a fan's man-crush on Jonathan. I wrote him a show tune called "Optimism". And fantasized a little bit. Fan Crush on Jonathan Groff (Optimism)

Why gay marriage? Because next-of-kin cancels legal documents. Champion bodybuilder Bob Paris explained to Oprah Winfrey in 1989.  Gays need the same protection from the biological family as straight couples. Creation of a new legal family of two people. At the time Paris feared his hateful family would seek to take his wealth. They kicked him out for being gay. Homeless at 16. Champion at 22.

Stand Free. Free Stylin' You & me are smilin' Strolling in the wind and Holding hands. High flyin' And Free. Free---->Stylin'  We found out the truth It won't set you free The truth is...... you ARE free No charge to discover  Attachment from my lover  Who keeps me smilin' Hands Free! Free---->Stylin' Rising above the lofty How it feels in my body  Words precisely chosen To your heart they're spoken  Love & romance together  Holding hands in bad weather  You & me are smilin'  And Free! Free---->Stylin'  Huggin' & kissin'. You & me 🎵 We're Free! FREE---->STYLIN' 🎵

Build a Dam To hold back love I know who I am What you're in need of  Build on promise  Where the rocks are true Healing of being honest  On the sandy beach with you  Hot like the sun Confused oh yeah! What sweet sensation  I throw myself in the air  Smiles break my face  On the edge of your lips  Heart starts to race  You give me a kiss Build a house  Fill it with affection  Permanently aroused In every direction  You talk in your sleep  I listen close You're speaking to me  Do I hear you propose? Build a dam with a dock A reservoir for love A home not a house  For our Wedding Day. (6/17/2024. #811. Gay Love & Romance) Theme Song for this Poem  Her sexiest music video with Willem Dafoe Physical Attraction - Madonna  🎶 You're confusing me 🎶

Unknown artist Adam gives up his integrity for a job mass-producing paintings for a famous artist. Adam develops depression, self-doubt & unjust jealousy. He breaks up with his gay lover, who is a successful food podcaster. Time apart makes the heart grow fonder. I like this movie because couples go through rough patches. This couple & supporting straight couples outlast their separation & reunite. "Almost Love" (2020) on Tubi.

Saturday at the grocery store, I was recognized from 50 years ago. In 3rd grade I was runner-up in the George Rogers Clark School spelling bee. Misspelled "shep(h)erd". Came back to win it 4th & 5th grades. So I've been a minor local celebrity ever since. People placed their hopes in me. They hoped a bright at-risk kid from a reverse-gentrified neighborhood -- poor families moved into large historic houses -- would make a difference. Did I achieve my promise? Was there return on your emotional investment? I think so. I failed 6th grade. Promoted to 7th anyway. Alternative school in 8th. I dropped out in 9th grade. Had an epiphany. Recommitted. Made new friends with the smart rich kids. I attended high school in a RACIAL WAR ZONE of gay-bashing. I persevered. I survived with physical scars.  What did people think I would do? Grow up & eliminate the communist loophole of the Constitution (Eminent Domain), which devastated the urban landscape & civic psyche. Or m

Never been to a gay bathhouse of promiscuous sex......except Grindr.

Pride. What is it? The mother of all secrets  You want everybody to know  Shame when it's wrong Fear when it's right It's plain common sense To seek the safety of isolation  From afar it looks like sin Pride can be a lonely ride  In your heart & soul  You want the world to know  Who you love the most Exuberant you sing out loud  Behind a wall of worry If they find out about us They won't say anything to your face That's correct. I'll be ostracized Treated like an ostrich  Ghosted to my face Crying behind a mask No turning back. Nobody's business  I want everybody to know  What makes me so happy  I'm so proud of my gay love.

"Pride Month is Embarrassing."  Heterosexuals often say their proudest moment is SEX. Oh and a baby dropped out nine months later. Your proudest accomplishment. Why should gay people not also be proud of their sexual orientation? Because there's no baby?

"Bathroom Stalls & Parking Lots" (2019) on Tubi TV-MA. Labeled a comedy.....but I didn't laugh. It is light-hearted. You follow your straight friend's terrible advice on getting laid. Your less attractive, gay friend steals your hookups right in front of you. Cruising all night.....you don't get laid. But your gay "friend" scores a trick every time you look away. You break up with your gay friend at daybreak.

You don't HAVE friends. You ARE a friend. My heart goes out to Josh. For me, I have one gay friend......my boyfriend. Only one person I want to hang out with. He is also my chosen family. So I'm not alone in my mind. I have one straight friend of 30 years. I drive to visit him a couple times a month. I take him grocery shopping. We swap secrets. I took him to the 6 a.m. free clinic dentist when he had no hope. Now he has false teeth. What a great present from a friend! I only ask for pleasant company.

Companion video complements my "Gay Sex Explained" video. The doctor & I are on the same page because my video is based on research & 44 years sexual experience as a young bottom then later a top daddy. www.youtube.com/@blairhawkins7490

With my boyfriend. Story behind the picture. An older couple took the photo to be developed. I gave my address. They mailed the photo. Thank you. ♥️  Sexy English-major Nick is in the passenger seat. Wearing a white linen shirt half-unbuttoned. We both tried to look gay sexy. Like a gay couple for benefit of the doubt people would give us. Nick listened & knew who I thought I was, my self-image. He didn't always agree.  The point is.....most people know me as who they think I am. My lover should know the real me. 😁

This or nothing  That's how sure I am Streaming you in my mind Feeling you in my body  Nothing else. All the time  Doubts. Yeah I got 'em  Fears. They make me nervous  Because we got so serious  So fast. So hard. So yes! On the Love Express  Together & far away  My heart is a safe space  Where sins are forgiven  Troubled secrets are spoken  Two spirits are redeemed  We both tried to fool around  The hard way we found out  Together & far away  Us or nothing  Streaming in your mind Feelings in your body  Loving You All The Time.

Have you ever been GHOSTED to your face? Dismissed & not allowed to speak? Not permitted to explain yourself? Censorship is GHOSTING. Cancel culture is how society ghosts you. As your family.....we disown you. You are dead to us. You are a GHOST in real life. Until you become sick. Then we reappear to take your assets & push you into the grave. Why else would we oppose gay marriage? We want your stuff. In the movie "Trade", Michael was GHOSTED to his face when his boss & wife refused to let him explain himself. I've been blocked & censored. Three times all my content disappeared from the Internet. I was expecting it. So I had backups. Only person allowed to SHUSH me..... To GHOST  me in person...... is my boyfriend. He knows I'm very sensitive to being ghosted. So I wrote a poem about it. "Shush me with a kiss". There's a proper time to GHOST someone. Like a restraining order. You're on a journey across the Atlantic in the 1700s. You

#1 sign he's actually into you.... He tells you. How to tell if he likes you. Pride.com

"Dream Boat" (2017) on Tubi. Melancholy movie. 7-day gay cruise = floating orgy of 3,000 men. Privileged gays complain about their victimhood. The sad hotties & depressed uglies self-segregate.... until blinded by party drugs late night. At sunrise, the crew cleans up used condoms on all the decks.  By day 3, half the ship is physically ill. Everyone has an STD or on PrEP......just from breathing the air. 😁 PEP is what you take right after or just before you expect to expose yourself to HIV. ♥️ I once dreamed of taking my husband on a gay cruise for our honeymoon. Now......Hell no!

Search & Replace with a pretty face Is it that easy? Your empty heart ran so far away  You're looking for someone new To take my place Hold your hand & kiss your lips  Under a solar eclipse See in your eyes & realize It's happening again  You're falling in love The way you always wanted to And you're petrified  I'm right here for you  Not a pretty face  Please don't Search & Replace  My broken heart has a room For your doubt & fear Your luggage of tears Go ahead. Search high & low I will be right here Go ahead & browse Look around for a pretty face Your empty heart breaks mine Search & Replace.

...UPDATE 6/24. Keven didn't delete my comment. He never saw it. I'm being shadow-banned. My comment appears to be there. When I check back later or reload, it's gone. No record in my Activity Log..... Keven..... you're older & more mature. Still random hookups with younger guys. Great. You have to SHOW desired behavior. You have to practice communicating.  Once my bf called me all happy & flirty. I had to say..... "I had sex". I rehearsed. The shoe went on the other foot when he had to confess another time. We both are good communicators. I think the 2nd date, he said he wants me to top him every single time we meet. Good feedback.  But I didn't know how to. When we first hooked up, I placed his hands on my hips so he can push & pull so I can learn how he likes it. Wow. He felt so good about himself. Knowing I would respect his unspoken desires.  The point is.....you have to teach & show young guys (& some old geezers too) how to expre

Inspired Words flow through my fingertips  Onto paper or keypad  Freedom of the Press Forum with a mass audience  I don't even think about it  My soul directly to your soul No. It's not that  I'm eavesdropping  Someone is speaking through me Contrived  I have to work at it Imagine then make it happen  I need something to say  First verse is inspired  Bam! There it is  Second verse is contrived  Filler Shelter & Labor  Reassurance your message is safe  Inspired by desire  I figured out it's my Muse Making me say & do things  I don't understand  Inspired to rise higher I'm inspired to share your story.

"Destination Wedding". Offbeat straight romantic comedy. You (Keanu Reeves) travel to a friend's wedding. You meet his ex along the way.  You two wander from the wedding & have sex in the field. Neither of you has a condom. Neither of you want children. You both orgasm. After sex, you ask ....Are you pregnant? In love at the end of the movie, you hope she is pregnant.

What's forbidden  That's where I'm driven  It's out of reach Still I don't retreat  Love is a mighty fire From which I can't retire I'll get burned for sure  Your flames I adore Down-low loving your desire  Guilty of sin. We conspire  What's forbidden  Why is it off-limits? There's no harm in my arms  No hurt in your heart  No cause to deny us A love so serious  That's where I've driven  No-tell motel from Hell Forbidden lovin' we keep hidden  Happy is out of reach  So I was told Two men can't love each other  Set a different goal  Here alone on the beach Dreaming about your kissing Our love is forbidden  So what?! That's Where I'm Driven. (6/7/2024. #794. Gay Love & Romance) Theme Song for this Poem  Who's gonna drive you home?

My life is a superlative  The worst one to forgive  I'm not the best or the most I just think I am On the edge with my boyfriend  In his heart. So much fun  I'm His Only One  Affection burns like a laser  Tension is a double razor  Tears through any façade If dreams are failing. Watch Out! Beware the fear of self-doubt Urgent feelings inside  Over-taken with pride I'm there with him Frozen with confidence  Chosen as boyfriend permanent  In his heart. I'm His Only One  No storm has ever raged No time has ever aged More fresh than us Like a proven myth Greatest Romance on a chance  The most is not a boast  We love in superlative  In his heart until kingdom come I'm His Only One.

WARNING Age Restricted - 18 & above.  Explicit discussion of gay anal sex using props.... a sketch & ink pen. Informative!

GHOSTED = Not interested.  Any communication = interested. What's the alternative? You actually tell someone you're not interested in hooking up. What then? They scream obscenities at you. Rejection hurts. Why can't you tell me exactly why you're not interested anymore? Trying to spare your feelings.  The person outraged is the toxic person. The GHOSTER has learned honesty is not the best policy in matters of romance. Video is another expert without a clue. 😁

Whirling in the wind Musings begin Days have passed  I saw you last You burst my bubble  I felt it double  Like a freight train  That's a runaway  Swimming in a creek  Fed by a glacier Location discreet There's nothing icier Than facing your back When you're angry The heart can't relax Until you forgive me Spinning my wheels In bottomless mud Climbing up hills Promises of love Until you find me A new soul Stirring within me A worthy goal Flying in the sky High above it all I shut my eyes And hear your call Through time & space You are my home For you I bring a poem For Your Heart - A Kiss.

"Code Name: Dynastud". Gay superhero must save America from the homophobic homicidal lawfare of the MAGA police. What first appears as an anti-Republican propaganda piece soon makes fun of other groups. Gays. Lesbians. Canada, maple syrup & Trudeau. Russian bot farm where mobsters spam & create memes.  Evil raygun turns Dynastud straight. To save the world, he must join a gay 3-way with the only gay of pure heart. "It's not gay if a girl watches."  The 2018 film is set in 2024. On Tubi rated TV-MA for simulated gay sex in every possible way throughout the movie, full male nudity, obscenities & gorey violence. I haven't laughed this much since "Another Gay Movie" 2006.

I've never seen so many penis outlines in wet swim trunks & shirtless hotties in any movie. Homoerotic film is not gay or realistic. But coming of age drama, loss & triumph. "Heart of Champions" on Tubi PG-13 with rear male nudity, simulated straight sex & violence.

A trend I can get behind. Ludde Blomqvist on Facebook

How much trust is enough? To carry me through With confidence of your love  If there's a limit I haven't reached it I'm on a quest to find out It's a fool's voyage. What? Relationships never work out Unless they're based on faith  Optimism you can be trusted That you have some self-control  In spite of your betrayals In advance I redeem & forgive  Again my heart begins to love Hope & optimism. Rainbow in a prism  After storms lay waste Nostalgia for the future  The urge to protect  The surge of respect  Delicate flower in the desert  I guard your feelings from hurt Why do I trust so much? More than my own relatives  Strangers passing through  Because that's who you were A clean-slate stranger Is there a limit? Can I reach it? Faith & optimism Rainbows in a prism.

Thor is so gay! In a good way. I didn't mean to give harsh advice. I love you bro. https://www.facebook.com/reel/948264117041055/?mibextid=rS40aB7S9Ucbxw6v My relationship advice

Charismatic Arslan installs Wind Turbine to his stealth black-out secret-service SUV converted to RV. The spectacle drives around small-town New York state. Arslan takes us along for the joy-ride.

My mistake was to love you less  Than I could have  When I should have done more  To provide love & happiness  Poor judgment. Carnival of fear Then one day you came along  Soon enough you dried up every tear I wrote you our first song  - It's Okay to Fall in Love - World won't stop spinning  Trees won't stop growing  If you fall in love with me Soon I took you for granted  You will always be there Oh no! Big mistake  I found myself abandoned  It was my great mistake  I should have given more Could have taken chances more  Until one day you went away  My mistake was to love you less  Yeah you came back to me Now I kiss you in a crowd  We found love & happiness.