In the Grayscale - fear of intimacy

"In the Grayscale" (2015) on Tubi. Study in the fear of intimacy or familiarity. You grow distant from your wife because you're hiding a secret. You are gay. You abandon your family to live alone. 

You have an affair with another man. You grow distant again. This time there's no secret to blame it on. Everyone, including your son, finds out you kissed a man in public. A romantic kiss. Again. "I'm sorry. I need time" alone. In the end you are totally alone with yourself. Familiarity has bred self-contempt.

Rated TV-MA for frequent full male nudity. Gay sex. Psychological themes.



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