Gay Love & Romance

Trailer  Now on Tubi. YouTube version censors the sex scene & curse words. Sweet, romantic gay love story. I'm watching it now for maybe the 5th time. Once with my boyfriend. He noticed a blooper. Ranger logo missing on door early in film. If that's the only bad thing you can say, must be a great movie. A must-see. I just finished it on Tubi. I can't wait to show my boyfriend the full sex scene. Around minute 47.  I can't stop smiling. UPDATE We skipped to the unedited sex scene. My boyfriend thought it was about to end. Then it got more intense. Three times. Like edging. Then climax. I touched him throughout the sex scene. When it was over. I let the movie play on again. And I kept touching him. I figured out the blooper. Drew's SUV has the forest service decal on driver side door, not the passenger door. And his brother Paul's vehicle has the logo on both sides. I think. My attention was divided.

I'm not lonely Since you're the only One who loves me When you're not here You're still my dear That's crystal clear I'm not lonely Because you love me Separated by vastness I still got happiness Time & space I miss your face But I'm not lonely Middle of the night In broad daylight In my heart there you are Why I'm not lonely You love me I'm not lonely Through the distance We got romance I took a chance Now I'm not lonely anymore How far away you are Company in my heart Though we might be apart I'm not lonely I know you love me I'm not lonely Because you love me I'm not lonely when I'm alone.

My tea is bittersweet & dirty. I guzzle it down with gusto.  Almost every story you guys related resonated with me. The suitcase in the trunk full of pictures. What if it was full of lingerie? My boyfriend isn't cheating on his wife with another woman. He's cheating as a woman with another man. For 20 years. We have monogamy EXCEPT he has a wife. He doesn't have a post-nup or pre-nup. Marriage has been loveless for a long time. He stays because of children & grandchildren & financial assets.  I came down with E.D. from prostate cancer 3 years ago. We kept on having sex. Eventually he wanted the real thing. We opened the relationship last year. We have no problem hooking up with strangers - except online. Now recommitted to "monogamy". I started a gay love blog to bring us back together. It worked. I got Cialis. My penis had shrunk from  radiation & hormone therapy. Sex is better now than ever. He's more petite. I'm 59 & he's 10 year...

I can't just say stuff I have to make it real I must show my Love to the world How I feel about you Do things tangible Kiss touch hugs are not enough Whispers in your ears To dispell your fears I come & go & fall short I write a poem from my heart I can't just say stuff I must display my Love I take you to the mall for Christmas I show you off We stroll I'm so proud of you Silently our bond speaks out I take you on a date We swim in the lake I pitch a day tent We make out I erase your doubt You light up my face It's not enough to say stuff How I feel I make it real In your heart I do things In mine You make me sing.

Double Standards I got 'em One for you my Lover And another for all others I'm a bigot when you turn on my spigot Love washes away judgment You're the only one who touches me So I treat you differently Indeed I discriminate On the basis of Love's oasis It's not fair?      Oh yes it is Supremely so If you want special treatment Treat me special The concept is not complex I take the initiative I'll be sensitive first Vulnerable & aroused  Make Love to be Loved More & better than all the rest You must be special & unique You gotta put out once a week Damn Double Standards I got 'em But only one for my Lover.

I was broken in pieces You put me back together With your crazy glue You can still see the cracks I feel them when it rains The one in my heart That's the biggest Your hand slipped right through I fell in love with your crazy glue The good parts & the bad parts You pieced me back together Like a puzzle without a guide picture I felt every touch & cringe You squeezed & held On your knees you fixed me With your crazy glue My heart was broken Until you made the repair With your crazy glue You made me love you Like fragmented pieces We're bonded together now Because of your crazy glue More than ever I love you.

In my Heart of Love I hid all my feelings Until they exploded Into a Love song I wrote it My Heart of Love rides the rollercoaster G-forces of emotion Whiplash deep & fast The bridge of a Love song I drove it A bucking bull will Break your back But a bronco will Take you back We ride off into the sunset Another Love song we don't forget I told you  My Heart of Love was the stage Where I rehearsed & cursed Now in our old age You're my only live audience I keep on writing & performing  Poetry In my Heart of Love I hid all my feelings Until I met you You are my muse This poem you inspire And all my fire & desire Your hand I hold it In my Heart of Love You come here for a hookup I play the songs I rehearse Deeper & faster You breathe & curse You ride the rollercoaster Bucking bull Breaks your back Bronco of love Takes you back In my heart with all these feelings Stay a while for the healing In my Heart of Love Karaoke at the after-party In my Heart of Love ...

Love is a giant rock On the sandy beach How it got there Nobody knows We are there I walk around it You mount it You stand on the apex Your pretty hair in stiff wind Bikini top & bottom Into the roar of the ocean You shout     I Love You You look down upon me I read your painted lips You leap into my arms We crash down on the soft sand I hold both your hands We laugh & giggle On the beach we wiggle A salty wave sneaks under us I kiss you for serious Like a Rock of Love Where it came from Nobody knows We are there.

 

 Picture July 2018. Lyrics 1998.

Cul-de-sac of Homeless Gay Love True story. Nobody bothered us until the preacher took notice from the church nearby. He ran us off on Sunday morning. A state trooper had already stopped by. He checked all our documents. My boyfriend & I & my mini van all came up clean in 1999. The trooper explained. We were technically on interstate property. You can hear & see traffic through the woods. There's no prohibition from "resting" here overnight. It doesn't look like we're living here. No trash in sight. Remote. Secluded. No complaints registered. Just a welfare check on routine patrol. Two soft-spoken guys sleeping in a clean van. Obviously a gay couple. Sometimes when people realize we're a homeless gay couple, they are extra nice. They think we're being persecuted. Kicked out from somewhere. Yet our love perseveres. But really it's poor life decisions. One Sunday morning we slept late in the van. The preacher took notice. I suppose he thought...

Upcoming is the 20th Christmas Since we met The first one We spent apart With broken hearts From the first minute I saw you I didn't expect it to last I was wrong as Hell First Thanksgiving we made love In a real place named Love In hindsight you were planning the breakup This was closure & foreshadowing But I didn't see the door closing First week in December I called to see you again You said you couldn't     Ever Can't stop thinking of me It's over     That's final     Dammit Yeah we got back together in the spring I'm planning a gay shopping road trip With you & for you First week in December  Not taking you for granted Is how we lasted First Christmas we were broken-hearted 20th Christmas Love just getting started.

Lay your head on my heart Don't say a word if it's over Just let it hurt Let it sober you up Soon after Thanksgiving Good times we don't forget  At the beach in the sun In the forest on the lake Skinny-dipping in the nude On the trail to secret love But most of all in the parking lot Where we met after Labor Day Tumultuous bliss until after Thanksgiving When we broke up first  Boy did it hurt    Fast I got sober Couldn't find the right words Until after New Year's Hello...... I still love you Calling to make sure you're okay Back together by St Patrick's Day We got drunk on Love Don't say a word     It's not over Let's have another drink Another chance at a dirty dance We won't be sober But this year We will be together After Thanksgiving.

"Wake me up" if you want my love "Flirt Bomb in the Forest" Rock bottom at the "Bottom of a Bottle of Beer"

Weatherman calls for rain She's been wrong before Romantic Love causes pain Wisdom has been wrong before Sure     Give me your advice But I won't follow it Can't swallow it Just to make you happy I've been wrong before I heeded advice not needed Resentment is a hard feeling Feelings I want to be soft Feeling each other up in the loft Beliefs are firmly held Poor grammar correctly spelled I've heard this tune before Weatherman calls for rain She's been wrong before But not this time Out my window Everything is wet Damp & dark & dreary Cold & wet & scary I should feel so lonely But I don't  I've been wrong before But not this time That was before I met you My heart listens to wisdom no more Too loud the love song in my head You know the one called I Love You in a Downpour We've both been wrong before But not this time That was before we met Now we sing a duet I Love You in a Downpour I've been wrong before But not this time.

I can make a change I can be less abrupt Less often I will interrupt If I don't act the same I won't be the same I can make a change for your Love I can be more passionate & romantic Calm your heart from any panic Be more reliable & vulnerable I can tell a story by holding hands In the Land of Blissfulness Our eyes make future plans I want to be your husband Your shelter from any storm Built on promises of happiness Wood stove & kisses keep you warm  I can make a change Be more honest & optimistic Keep the faith when full of doubt More naive in your arms On the street I'm realistic In the sheets I'm poetic That's not gonna change Who I am will remain I can make big changes On chance to make a family Move away to the stars Risk it all for Love Return home jaded & forlorn My frown keeps me looking down Where your Love finds me I can make a change If that's what you really want Be less honest or passionate Less intimate or raw Less intense to de...

 

Like a secret lover I'm rough around the edges Like a silent partner You hear me in the darkness As a secret craves exposure I must keep my cards close My careless words to a whisper Like     How have you been? I miss you man      Let's make plans  When no one's looking   Hold my hand  Like a secret lover Unsure where I'm headed To us both it's a secret But your heart is no stranger To the lonely danger On the highway to a companion Like a true lover Your truth I won't reveal My lips are sealed What if someone sees us? Acting like careless lovers Maybe they'll keep the secret too Breaking hearts in love is taboo So we go on kissing each other Out in the open   Out on the range Like secret lovers missing each other.

Feeling      Damn these Feelings  They leave me reeling Wheeling & dealing For a better one to come along A precious feeling With a drag name & stage presence Emotion     Damn these emotions  They come & go as they please Like tides of the ocean Like seasons of the sun Some are sad & bad But most are fun Mood      Damn these moods Shifty & always late like the moon Wonder why they wax & wane When you come around I push all but a few back in the closet I lock 'em down Happy      Damn this happiness  You can stay out & play When my gay lover arrives later today Be fresh & ready for his teddy Feed the mood    Dinner candle-lit Passionate & intimate Feelings       Damn these Feelings  Leave them in the closet All but a precious few Happy   Fun   Trust   &   Lust Y'all can stay out & play I'm feeling ...

I thought it was thunder But it wasn't It was 2 tricks in 2 trucks I hoped it might be a new start And it was When 2 hearts met each other I thought you were too rough When push come to shove Scared of stranger-danger But not enough  Afraid but not ashamed When I take your hand I want the world to see us I thought I had a headache But I didn't It was nervous fear of great heights That I might fall into If I start to like you  Where love comes to shove I might fall I thought it was friendship Then I start to wonder A kiss on my lips A tingle from down under I thought it was thunder It made me over A tempest of happiness & bliss  I found out it's called Love.