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Hookup wasn't that hot

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UPDATE. It now appears Keven couldn't have sex with Grindr guy because Keven recently broke up with a European perfect guy after 7 dates. I hope they get back together. Keven you're in a sticky situation. You invited a guy over to your place for sex. You reject him. He tries to figure out why in a discussion with you. You were on the defensive the whole time. Worry about physical safety & fear of std's. You don't like his arrogance. What could you have done differently? Express these feelings to him. You (Keven) have trust issues. You do have trauma. When you first meet a guy, that's the time for brutal honesty. Which is attractive. The purpose of the wine is to loosen up. But I can't help but be shallow & think you didn't find him that sexy in person.  Right now he is wondering why you rejected him. Just another flaky Grindr dude? Or what did I do wrong? Was I too confident? Why didn't he start psycho-analyzing me back?  My advice is to practice

Did You Notice Me?

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Hello. I was just wondering  Did you notice me like I noticed you? From afar. Like an earthquake boom High trail I was hiking  When I saw you walking  Way over there down-low  I saw your lovely hair  Did you notice me like I noticed you? A falling star shoots across the sky  Brimstone fireworks  Like a heart-break revelation  I was just wondering  Did you notice me? Because I sure did notice you  Yes. Hello. I was just thinking  I hope someone notices me In a good way. On a sunny day  I'm all cleaned up fancy  A wish that someone notices me That someone is you  Yes I noticed you like you noticed me Can I have a kiss? Can I see you again?

Is Your Heart Empty?

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Looking for a new place  Is your heart empty? Enough room for dreams to bloom Privacy for intimacy  Space enough for love  Is your heart vacant? I don't need furniture or signature  Fancy ring or tales to spin All I want is peace & release  A place to rest my bones  Space enough for love Can I lease your heart? What's the rate for being safe? Can I say what I think? Disagree with the universe  And not be spanked  Not looking for much Space enough for love  Seeking a nice home  Where I'm not alone Dreams are born in bloom  Don't need much just Space enough for love  Is Your Heart Empty?

One Person Loves Me

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No one is coming to save you  Nobody cares Standing alone at the edge  Middle finger in the air  They don't like you They resent you Being nice to bad people  Won't make bad people nice  All that might be true  Except one thing  One Person Loves Me  I'm not lonely He's my least kept secret  No one believes me  But I know for a fact One Person Loves Me  Someone is coming to save me Somebody does care My faith is long & strong  Salvation is in the song  Heart keeps company  One Person Loves Me  That's all I need  One person to love.

At the End of the Day - Love

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Dave's wife leaves him for a woman. He loses his counseling practice. He takes a job teaching at a Christian school. A gay student asks tough questions & is expelled by the dean. Dave sabotages the effort to open a house for homeless gay teens in a building coveted by the school. God works in mysterious ways. God is Love.

Pedro & Maxi - Astronaut Lovers

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A straight friend falls in love with you. Gradually you let yourself fall in love with him. Sweet gay romance. In Spanish with English subtitles. Short edited version.

Is Love a Fantasy?

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Is LOVE a fantasy? Or fantastic? This blog speaks against the video. Love is very real. Just like any other emotion. Happiness. Sadness. Fear. Faith. There's one problem. You cannot see emotions. Like temperature & radiation. But it's very real. You can see its effects. Mostly you love what you spend time with. Keep your relationship in the attraction mode....you want to spend more time with your partner. Wanting to spend less time is called rejection. Small children know this instinctively. There's the idea of love. And then there's true love. When a couple breaks up, you wonder if your partner ever truly loved you. Of course he did. His feelings changed. He fell out of love. Because you somehow hurt his feelings. Or you disappointed him. Or betrayed him. Or started to avoid him. No such thing as unconditional love. Everyone needs love in order to feel complete. Without it, you will continue to suffer. And justify your own trauma. I recommend you enjoy this gay lov

Playing Hooky in a Hurricane

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Playing Hooky in a Hurricane  I'm calling in again. Secret lovin' Rain & wind squall. I risk it all If the creek don't rise I will light up your eyes  Very soon because I'm playing hooky  The two of us in a cyclone The power just went out Just then I kissed your lips  Wind gust hit the window! My arms protect you  Happy I made the trip  Perfect day for playing hooky  Hunker down! Water's rising  Love-making is surprising Storm surges from the urges Sudden calm for a minute Intimate in a hurricane  We're experts at playing hooky  Another groan. It's a cyclone Calling in again. Secret lovin'  Playing Hooky in a Hurricane (Theme Song for this Poem) Rock You Like A Hurricane - Scorpions

Walk on Water - if your heart is pure

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Unexpectedly good movie. Ex-military assassin is recruited to hunt Nazis. The Nazi is your grandfather in hiding. The assassin befriends you & discovers you're gay. He follows you to Berlin. Friendship, love & his wife's suicide soften his heart. He can't kill anymore. But you can. "Walk On Water" (2004) on Tubi. TV-MA for violence & male nudity.

It's Good To Have Goals

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Sofa in October  Sandy beach November  My van will take me there He's called The Great White Spot It's good to have goals Vision trip to another land Make-over in the future  Rejuvenate my soul Return refreshed for my man It's good to have goals  Pen & paper at my fingertips  They describe your sweet lips So far away. Yet so close Recharge my mind & soul Send pics on the phone From The Great White Spot  Seen from space. Your rugged face Sofa in October  Sandy beach November  It's Good To Have Goals.

Is your Life a Loop?

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Is your life a loop? Day after day the same thing. Monotony of misery. Year after year. Groundhog Day every day. You're not happy or content. Your interruptions are negative. Getting high. Sex parties. Cheating. Binging. Seclusion. Vacations from reality. You lack balance. You're not grounded. And you're not soaring to new heights. Stuck in a continuous cycle of sadness. Who told you that was okay? Everybody. Parents. Teachers. Bosses. Mentors. The elite who are not in your situation. I have broken out of the cycle many times in my life. I didn't listen to experts. I'm not listening still. But I know my life is in a loop right now. Just not sure how to break out of it. Yeah I'm brainstorming though. 

Save the Steam Room!

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Fountain of Youth aquifer is discovered under the steam room. Evil cosmetics mogul orders her gay assistant to seize the gym for her empire. But his allegiance is compromised when he dates one of the steam room studs. On Tubi. TV-MA for nudity, adult themes & persistent thirst. Meet Eric & Jacob

Why do women hate men?

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Extremely disturbing & realistic depiction of women. I found myself screaming at the TV. Luckily I'm gay. So I don't allow women in my home, in my car or to flirt with me. Women are terrorists. As every straight man knows.

Christmas Coming Out - short gay film

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Your parents visit. You take down all the pictures of you & your boyfriend. He shows up to your house. You finally come out as gay to your parents. They say they've always known. They bought you the G.I. Joe doll to play with. They're happy you have someone in your life.

Super Freaks & Freak-off Parties

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From Hollywood's dark dungeon to the White House, sex scandals continue to rock the celebrity-politician-adult community. Allegedly! From P Diddy & Austin Wolfe to Weinstein & Epstein.  Theme Song for this Post  Super Freak by Rick James 1981

Down-low is shame

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Stay away from down-low discreet married gay men. They will never come out. Well. Too late. Some love is better than no love.

Anally Induced Orgasm

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"That was awesome!" Super hot Sean William Scott.

I don't deserve to live - gay short film

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...... "I" cheated. I caught HIV. I gave it to my boyfriend. He got sick with full-blown AIDS. I dumped him. I'm healthy & "undetectable" on meds. I hallucinate my ex is killing me. I don't deserve to live. He dies. My new boyfriend is HIV negative. My unresolved guilt causes dangerous mental illness. I start to believe I am my ex & my boyfriend is me. I don't deserve to live.

Benefits of Cialis

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Did this doctor see my August 30 post & create a video for me? Sex almost killed me. Well. I was not completely honest. I took 2 Cialis (total 20 mg) in several hours for erectile dysfunction. I passed out or fainted. Cialis is used to treat enlarged prostate & heart conditions. My blood pressure was low (100/60) from Cialis & Losartan. I was having an intense hot flash (heart attack adjacent). My diet is poor from hospital bills (second half of July & August I fasted). Now I have finally resumed my Calcium supplement. And I need to make other adjustments. FYI: Love is keeping me alive ♥️

Sweatpant season is here

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He wore 2 pair underwear under the sweatpants for the censors. "I'm more of a grower."