Why Do I?

I shouldn't be so sensitive 
What's wrong with me?
You haven't returned my call
That's all. Not that unusual 
Now it's the next day & another call
My mind is a rollercoaster 
My gut is a cocktail 

Are you okay? Did you break down?
Did you fall out of love?
I shouldn't care. I'm sure you're fine 
No sense of urgency. No emergency 
We've been here before 
I shouldn't worry or fear or doubt 
So then why do I?

What else would I be doing?
Scrolling through Grindr?
Looking for you or your replacement 
Someone to worry about 
I was confused. It was all in my head
Rumors of the heart
I shouldn't let myself love so much
So then why do I?



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