Strangers at the Station - scene 4

Love letter from William to Jacob

William's soliloquy Feb 19.

My Dear Jacob. I arrived safely in San Fran on Christmas Eve. The edge of the civilized world. Not the good edge. You kept your promise. I made it home.

Not a day has passed I haven't thought of you every minute. How I nursed your wounds from the Memphis altercation. At your mom's farm in St. Louis, we lived like newlyweds. 

They tried to swindle me at the station while you were in the men's room. They robbed me of my suitcase of Christmas presents for my kids. You chased them down. They beat you up. I got my case back. 

More importantly, most assuredly, I got you back. I wanted to kiss you so bad. But I knew it was too dangerous if anyone saw us.

I remember the lonely rural rail station where we met. You coughed from my tobacco. Got a buzz. Got vertigo. Kissed me in the shadow. Later made love to me in the sleeper compartment. Special. True & sincere. Passionate yet grounded. My unexpected gift from God on a quest for Love.

In my heart, you are a god. Maybe that's a little too poetic. This is ink so I can't erase. You are god-like. You calmed my heart like the tossing sea. You gave me calm energy. Patience & appreciation for my family. My relationships have improved. I have your divine love to thank for it. Your hand holds my heart.

My wife knows I had an affair. She doesn't know it was with a man. Or which man. I don't think. My circle of friends who know the secret I'm hiding is growing. It's only a matter of time.

My heart wants to blabbermouth to the world. You are the greatest love of my life. Every minute I feel your calm assuredness. You gave me what I was looking for. A love affair for the ages. If only for a few weeks.

And I gave you what you wanted. I was your chosen family. Your pretend spouse. Your true lover. A stand-in for your ex. One day we won't be a secret. Until then, I can kiss you in the dark shadows. Like at the rail station. You found my heart. You switched it back on.

Love & Sincerity for Eternity

William

Scene 5. Love letter from Jacob to William March 6.

Scene 1 The gay love story begins here.