Brutal Honesty of a Boyfriend

Incredible sex Unbelievable pillow talk
Until brutal honesty of a boyfriend
Burly bricklayer hands & masculine 
Now just memories in our heads

It's okay to tease me a little bit 
Love is sensitive & serious
Others can denigrate me
Yet I have not a care but
The same words from you eviscerate me
You caught yourself being a bully
Plucking on my insecurity
The fear I might lose my lover
That's you 

Like I teased you last week
I described your family with your words
You didn't like it
I stopped when your expression dropped
We're not close to breaking up
But when feelings are hurt
That's what I think of

If we do break up
I'm confident I will find a replacement
Am I just saying that? Maybe 
I will start a new phase
Perhaps a new gay love blog
The first was collab with you
To save our open broken relationship
It worked 
The second & current love blog
Recommitment to monogamy 
You don't read it anymore

It's true
I'm not the man I once was
Nor am I the same person
We change yet we remain
Together after 20 years
If we do break up
I won't be looking for another you
I'll just be looking for a man to love
5 minutes after breakup
I'll post a headless photo on Scruff

Gay man
Looking for sex on the first date
Tired of being a top

That's it for the dating profile
Hurt feelings is no reason to break up
And we're not. It's all in my head
Because my feelings got hurt
When you teased my insecurity
The fear you might meet someone
And I will never see you again

I'm sorry how I taunted you last week
Shaming you for having a family
Trying to come between you & them
I want to spend more time with you
That's all
It's irrational because Love
Sensitive & serious

I thought I was masculine
Until brutal honesty of a boyfriend
We change yet we remain
In Love like when we met
Incredible & unbelievable
Until next week My lover
My heart is optimistic.

(2/2/2024. Gay Love & Romance)

Theme song for this Poem
Honesty by Billy Joel
I used to have this 45.



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