I always Knew

I knew, and everybody always knew I was different. At 12 I realized I'm gay. I lost my sleepover friends because they kept getting in trouble. I turned my life around after failing 6th grade. Lots of gay bashing. I didn't hide my boyfriends except from school & work & military & danger. 

When I was 39, I came out in the newspaper as a gay political candidate. I didn't win the election. The following year I met the Great Consuming Love of my Life. 20 years ago. I lost my gay friends. 

This year I came out on Facebook. I lost more friends. My boyfriend is driving me to my next doctor's appt. I can drive alone. He wants to do stuff for me. I've been denying him that. 

The series Fellow Travelers will keep resonating for a while longer ♥️

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