Love Shaming


You shouldn't love me so much 
I don't deserve it    Can't return it
I have obligations
I'm not gay the same way as you
It will never work out
I can never give to you
What you offer me
Lopsided love if there ever was one
You should find a full-time partner
You deserve better

Are you sure?     Hold on a minute
What are we gonna do about it?
Call it what it is
LOVE SHAMING
Everything you just said is true
Still I'm not ashamed of loving you
I don't know why     That's how it is
You can have some of my confidence 

So stop shaming me for loving you
Hold my hand & live again.

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