New Phase

No new love blogging.for while. Too intense. No we're not breaking up. Hormone blocker rocking my world. Or lack thereof. 

My body is transforming back to pre blocker. I got veins. I got muscles. Blood blister in roof of mouth. That was a scary minute. I got new energy & confidence. Although I'm exercising poor judgment with clarity. Aggression & determination. Acting like I used to. New phase.

Hormone blocker was intended only for 3 years anyway. As a benefit, I can talk about hormone blockers now in a very personal way. Unexpectedly I find myself in the middle of the transgender debate. My boyfriend is trans in his heart. He sometimes talks about transitioning. Will I still love him? Hell yes! He knows the operation is too risky. I don't want him to suffer. 

Now he knows the effects of hormone blockers up close & personal. He fell in love with who I was. Not what I've become. I think hormone therapy might be over for me.

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