To pick up a guy

Was it a real flirtation? Or did I imagine everything? Older customer with a black cowboy hat & Young cashier with black ear spacers. 

We kept talking as customers lined up behind me. One customer walked in the door & cashier said, Welcome to the thrift store. I chimed in, We love you. So I was feeling flirty in the moment.

I rarely buy books. Almost never fiction. I wanted something new to challenge me. I feel challenged in the first few chapters. But last August I wrote 13 chapters of a gay sci-fi porno on another blog.  I find nonfiction easier to write after 40 years experience. This entire love blog is a challenge.

What's the chance this cashier has read the prequel to the book I was buying? Today it was 100%. He was glancing inside the book.

He kept asking how often I shop at the store? I said about once a month. Now I'm thinking--two days in a row. A flirtation is like a booty call. It has an expiration. It's today, maybe tomorrow; not Let's hookup next week.

As I tore myself away, I said, I hope you're working when I come back. Loud enough for him to hear & everyone in line to hear. Hopefully that made him feel good. And at this moment 10 o'clock at night, he's hoping I will shop again soon. He's happy I made no secret of the flirtation. I was proud to flirt with him.

I already told my boyfriend on the phone that I think this flirtation is real. I only see my boyfriend once a week. So a lot of time I'm alone, I write poetry.

It's okay to make a new bro-friend with benefits. Damn I love my boyfriend. I wish he wasn't away so much. He reads this blog.

I don't know if the cashier is gay. But my gaydar said yes. Despite erectile dysfunction, I have plenty of sex drive. It functions but not like it used to. Fleeting erections. I can orgasm but not ejaculate. Giving affection & intimate conversation is more my style.

Of course, read to him anything he has written.

No greater aphrodisiac than hearing your words come out of his mouth. Basically I'm looking for a friend to give platonic love to. To give confidence & complements. I can't have 2 romances at the same time. 

This post is different from the other crushes I've had. It's full of mixed messages. I'm so nervous because I intend to follow through. Maybe not tomorrow. But soon. If I don't chicken out. Using a love blog to seduce a young man? It might work. Might not. It's a chance I've got to take. I certainly had fun & sexual tension creating this post.

Customer with cowboy hat

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Cashier with ear spacers

Call me maybe. You want to talk about it over coffee?  Here's my blog address & phone number. What's your name?